MY transition into ME

by / Saturday, 11 April 2015 / Published in tolerance

Has there ever been a time where you’ve wanted to do something, but were afraid to do it?

Maybe it was asking someone out on a date. Perhaps it was applying for a new job. Or maybe it was sharing your art with someone.

Whatever it was, that nagging voice in your head may have been telling you things like…

“Don’t even try. It’s going to be a disaster.”

“You’re not good enough to succeed.”

Or even…

“You’re a failure, you’ll be rejected and laughed at.”

Well, in 2009, I faced fears and doubts just like those… and in a big way.

And today I’m going to share how I completely changed my relationship to failure.

At the time, I had a great job as a SAP CRM Functional

Consultant. I was living a “successful” life, 7 figure salary.

But none of it made me happy.

The job just wasn’t fulfilling, even though I was good at it. I didn’t feel like I was making a difference or helping others. Every day I left work feeling like there must be more and I was missing “it.”

Even worse was, I didn’t know what that seemingly magical “it” was. I just knew things felt off.

Nor did I knew what makes me happy. What was I looking for my life?

After all, my full-time work was “secure.” It let me live the lifestyle of “success” that my ego loved and had grown accustomed to. It was familiar. And I couldn’t stand the thought of giving it up.

I didn’t know what would happen if I left the security of my full-time job.

The voice in my head kept telling me…

“You can’t make the leap. You’ll never make a life which is happy, fun, content. You’ll be a failure.”

And you know what?

I nearly believed that voice. Even though I’d never actually tried anything before, I almost let the voice convince me I couldn’t do it.

But thankfully…

I didn’t face my fears alone. I sought the advice and support of someone I trusted.

And, it made all the difference. I finally felt peace about my situation. Talking with my mentor (my Husband) gave me the courage to give notice at my job and leap toward this new life that I was passionate about.

Without that turning point, it’s quite possible I wouldn’t be writing to you today.

It also reminded me yet again, that when facing fears, it’s hard to do it all on our own. We need the support of others. We need guides who can show us the way.

Now, I am living a life which is fun, ever-changing and  yummmmmmyyy!!!!

How does it get any better than this!!!

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